INSTRUCTIONS FOR A (GHOST DISCO)
In between you and I
A ghost
A ghost
A ghost
Caught between your love and their body
Tangled where earth meets the memory
Their hands in your hair
Their hands in your head
In between you and I
A ghost
A ghost
A ghost
To lose
Be deprived of, or cease to have or retain
Become unable to find (something or someone)
1.
BEGIN THE GHOST DISCO
(DECIDE TO DO THIS)
Have at least 10 minutes to do it. Uninterrupted time. Or interrupted (it’s your life).
2.
REACH BEHIND YOU
(THINK OF SOMEONE YOU HAVE LOST AND WOULD LIKE TO REMEMBER)
They may be lost to:
The past
Different continents
Death
Who they used to be
Who you used to be
Beginnings
Endings
Disappearance
Time
Something never happening
Somewhere else
3.
YOU ARE GOING TO DANCE SOON
(CHOOSE A SONG)
This is the song you are going to dance to. It should feel like you want to hear it. Consider how you would like to dance with the person you’re remembering.
Would you like to think of a moment
or to sing
Would you like to cry
Would you very much like not to cry
to sweat
to move fast and hard
to move soft
?
4.
THINGS CAN SEEM LOST BUT THEY ARE NEVER LOST ENTIRELY
(TIME TO THINK AND TO LOOK AT YOUR HANDS)
In each of us are two times. First Time and Second Time.
Hold up your left hand, palm facing you
First Time understands itself. It is biological.
We are born —> we live —> we die.
It is shared by us all. It is linear and works in straight lines. It is indifferent to feeling and thought.
Someone is alive or someone is dead
Someone is here or someone is not here
Animals exist in First Time.
(Animals do not have philosophical problems)
Look at the palm of your left hand for a moment and know you exist in First Time
Hold up your right hand, palm facing you (keep your left hand raised)
Second Time does not understand itself. The time of our consciousness.
Non-linear. Made from feeling and thought.
Made from the understanding that we are conscious, alive and there have been others before us
Someone is here or someone is not here
but
That does not mean they are not with us
They may be gone in some ways - in body or mind
Gone from this ground, gone from our arms, gone from this life
But they are here in others - in memory or feeling. Here in love, here in sleep, here in strange places
They are not lost entirely
And so they are where?
Look at the palm of your right hand for a moment and know you exist in Second Time also
Knit your hands together
We are often caught between First and Second Time. Neither more real than the other.
Place your hands together, palm to palm
In this dance, time is nothing but ours. To take, to borrow, to stretch, to close.
In this dance, we are going to close the gap. Between us and them. Between absence and feeling. Between their hands and our heads.
Keep your hands together, palm to palm
5.
PEOPLE LEAVE THEMSELVES ALL OVER ONE ANOTHER
(A PRAYER)
Speak into your hands the following words. You may want to whisper. You may not.
People leave themselves all over one another.
It is not possible to lose someone entirely
Not entirely
You yourself cannot be lost entirely
No matter how hard you may try
People leave themselves all over one another.
This earth has been trodden before
This breath has been breathed before
There is life beneath the ground that we cannot see but upholds our living
We do not always need to see things for them to be there
People leave themselves all over one another.
People leave themselves all over one another.
People leave themselves all over one another.
Breathe in deeply, air to your stomach
Breathe out, slow and slow and slow - release your hands
6.
CLOSETHEGAP
(PLAY THE SONG. DANCE)
The song can be played aloud, in your mind, or any way you desire to play it
Know they are with you, as much as anything else
Close your eyes
Or don’t
Dance with them, for as long as you can
For as little as you can
For as long as the song plays
For as long as feels right
Play the song
Dance
(Close the gap)
7.
DISENTANGLE
(THE DANCE HAS COME TO AN END)
Look to your left palm
Then to your right
Notice the gap
Notice you have the power to close it
Then say goodbye for now
Using whatever words you’d like to use
Or don’t say anything at all
(the dance has come to an end)
Thank yourself for dancing
You have completed the ghost disco